sorry for being gone for so long

I have ben gone for a little while but i have been so busyyyy butt im not to happy though. Still don't have my camera i had nothing but test this week and two of them were a epic failure. its okay though i have been prepping myself for the blink 182 comeback by being on my "blink 182 diet" lol i remember when i was little before i even had the same personality i have now i was always obsessed with them and use to get my ass made fun of becuase i liked the "white dudes who run around naked" but hey who cares man. Another reason why i been so mad becuase now i only have word of mouth to back up my music like i have nothing out there i need to get in the studio asap by gods grace i can go in by sunday. Since this is my blog ima share something that i only feel myself but never shared with anyone. Every time i see a new rapper or hear a new song its like i get discouraged like damn maybe im not really s good as i hear i am and as i think i am maybe i really cant make it. But i just rebuke that feeling go on youtube find a random instrumental and spit a freestyle i jus hope that the little money i have is enough to replace the stuido mike for matts room but man idk dude bleh hard to explain dont know what im saying nor feeling.